Awaking into a dreamy morning, full of rain, I was
looking at a sleepy city whose heavy eyelids were becoming visible with each
blink resisting the invasive dawn. As I was observing the lights behind the
window panes being lit as the street lamps were turning off, I could feel my
own eyes seeking other sites. As the urban giant was becoming increasingly
alert to the rising vibrancy of the traffic, walks, movements, and mingling of
all sorts, the semi-transparent milky crust was gently spreading over it, protectively
barricading its pulse, its the rhythm, its steady bassline, from other
reemerging dynamics.
(I remember things. By the word things I mean
people, stuff, places, times, and things that I still don’t know the words for.
I don’t know if anyone does.)
As the whitish threads were pouring through falling
microtubes saturating the colossal concrete empire, they were acting as a
moving cleanser of the paths along which they were sliding, simultaneously
brushing away dust, piles of frozen, sticky, stinky vomit, plastic bags smeared
with glue, congested, disposed syringe,
cigarette butts, empty vials, pieces of foil, bottles, mashed potatoes that
nobody wanted, scrambled eggs that somebody couldn’t eat, mayonnaise--spiked
with heavy cream and ketch up--smudged over the surface of a bench, on that
dollop--like a cherry on a cake—debris of a blunt, around it a puddle of beer
pouring out of a knocked down can, pouring further like a stream looking for a
crack on the pavement to dip into and hide from its own smell.
Awaking into a dreamy, rainy dawn, I was becoming
part of that fluffy milkishness. As the army of the falling liquid microtubes
was softly descending, I was falling asleep, falling in love with a universe
that spread its smooth cushions to welcome the visitor. I entered an
intergalactic quietude occasionally stirred by the light emanated from the
stellar formations we were passing by. Followed by long stretches of silence.
And longer patches of mixed up presences and absences where boredom reigns. No
satellites, no meteors, no asteroids. Like the whole universe were a syringe,
whose barrel was our alley—emptied chamber and chasing what was previously its
content and now is inevitably eluding it, leaving even the very needle empty
and useless.
(Because I remember, things, places, and times are
vivid in my memories. So are the people. Sometimes, I think I remember too
much. Things thus become heavy. Nonexisting words even heavier. Let alone
thoughts.)
Awaking into a dreamy dawn, the city was drunk with
rain. As the street lights were fading away, the whitishness dribbling down the
peeling facades, was looking for the beer brook searching for an interstices of
rescue. Sour beer drunk with microthreads of the semi-visible velvety coating. Together
they flow along intergalactic expressways. Merging with long silent alleys,
they become an imaginary pulse of the domineering emptiness, thereby forming a
vibrating lane, generously presenting the passengers with intense mildness
unmistakenly undisturbed &
irresistibly undisturbing:
Yo
mafotherfuckin gerbera, open up, wake the fuck up, get outta here & fucking
speak!
As the union flow is dashing carried by the echo of
the syncopated conversation between its own imaginary beat and the universe’s
forgotten smile, it is struggling to disentangle the eyelashes encrusted with
superfine nanoparticles of the yesteryear’s starburst. The confusion of the off-focus
image is becoming a look through the lens of the eye after a splash of
refreshing, crystalline water. The ketch up magma is turning into a beehive of
rear lights, while the supposedly analgesic fusion of beer who thought it was adrenalin
and milk shreds who mistook themselves for an anesthetic, is transforming into
a river of headlights. The sparkling
effect is being intensified as from the horizon, previously erased by
intergalactic darkness, flickering of a distant city is manifesting itself in
the glory of its reemerging from the depths of its own fabricated invisibility.
The intergalactic desert is clearing in front of the reawaken concrete giant,
bursting in its robustness, an enactment of a pompous overflow, an embodiment
of proud stoicism with a shy, skillfully hidden heart of greenery amidst the
desensitized gigantic urbanity.
Awakening with the dreamy city, disenchantment is
shining : neither sadness nor overjoy. Disenchantment is not disappointing. It
is no more (and no less) than what it is. It can be described in different
ways, viewed from different angles, analyzed from diverse perspectives,
dissected to the point of unrecognizability, interpreted until it almost turns
into its own distorted dream. And yet, all the words, no matter how violating
or beautifying, can rob it of the protective shield : the poetics of a
political meditation. Such is the rhetoric of the remix.
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